Controlling Anger By Meditation

I have never really looked at myself as a heated person. I would always do whatever I could to try and help someone out, nor did I do anything that would make someone feel bad, or I would try as hard as I could not to. Month after month we struggle to make ends meet but I really didn't complain. I was just happy that we did have the money to cover our bills and have a roof over our heads even though we scarcely had enough to survive on after covering the bills. Meditation is very much needed in most people's lives, no doubt about that.

Even after all the struggles I did not get mad. That changed last week. I seriously had to meditate to myself when I accompanied my sister to the doctor last week. My sister is a very hard worker. She never takes a day off work unless it is completely necessary. Last year my sister had become ill and at last after being so drained she went to the doctor. Her doctor admitted her into the hospital and gave her 4 bags of blood and told she had pneumonia.

I just couldn't understand- how do you lose blood by having pneumonia. As I meditated my mind drifting over the last year I was not prepared to listen to what the doctor was going to say as my sister and I were driving to the doctor. You see my sister got sick again. She nearly passed out at work and was brought again to the hospital. This time she required 5 bags of blood. She would keep telling me she was anemic. After the hospital did a ct scan on her they said she needed to go to her lung doctor immediately. That's where my sister and I were headed.

My sister never wants me to concern myself over her so she never told me any details and did not want me to go in the room with her when she went in for her appointment. After I meditated on this I came to the conclusion that when she was called back I would go in with her, and that's just what I did. The doctor appeared and you could see instantly the concern on his face. He started reading the results of her ct scan. He was reading something about her lungs.

He was telling her about something growing in her nodules and extending to her lymph nodes. He did not say it was cancer but I knew by what he was explaining that it was. I didn't want to scare my sister so meditating to myself while he was reading the test findings I asked, what does all this mean? Instead of asking is it cancer, I asked is it possible it is cancer?

His reply was yes ma'am. She needed to go for a biopsy in a couple of days to see how far it has spread. I really find myself angry at this stage since she has never smoked a day in her life. And here she is 49 years old with lung cancer. So instead of fretting for the next couple of days and getting mad. I merely needed to practice meditation by praying that God to please heal my sister.